9.21.2011

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For the record in case anyone's paying attention, I'm on a very long haitus. Since... earlier events... I've been a tad bipolar, to an extreme. I can't focus, and I have the oddest urge to stab anyone that comes near me. Not exactly healthy, especially when it comes to my friends.


So it looks like you kiddies will have to do your own homework for a while, ya? Sorry for the inconvenience. I'm also rather ashamed of the fact that I can't seem to hold a conversation that lasts more than five minutes without acting like a complete nut job, like... right now for example. I don't even know what the fuck I'm doing or saying.


Another example. A couple of days ago I heard a certain Rihanna song on the radio on the way to the grocery store, and nearly crashed into a ditch. Not pleasant. I now have an extreme aversion to a huge list of songs, which is frankly fucking annoying. Also, obligatory hate-filled moment: FUCK YOU AND BURN IN HELL YOU GODDAMNED SOULLESS BASTARD! Ahem. Sorry about that, I can't exactly control those 'moments.'


Can't focus, can't keep one thing in my head for long. Everything reminds me of pain and songs and blood, and my head starts going down fucked up little paths. This is NOT what you would call fun, ladies and gentleman. The thought of a reading one of those insanely long blogs and writing about them makes me start twitching. Goodbye for now.

26 comments:

  1. As I said, do what's best for you Brightsky. You know how to reach me if you ever want to talk.

    Also, this may seem like a stupid thing to say at this point, but why not make a "safe" list of songs to have on an ipod or cd to carry around... you don't have to do that forever, but just for right now...

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  2. Dia, I'm sorry for your experince, take as much time as you need. Scince discovering your blogs my own research has made great leaps, you are a very important person in this battle and your information is always helpful. I'm sorry I'm not yet informed enough to fill your niche while you are on haitus, but if anyone deserves a break it is you.

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  3. Dia- Rest well dear.

    I'm still looking.

    Until Next Time.
    Me.

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  4. use it. become more than what you were.
    or it will slowly eat you alive.

    if all of your choices are bad
    choose the one with power.

    Samuel.

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  5. Riddle dude is right, JOIN THE DARK SIDE!

    we got cookies. and torture!

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  6. From experience, my friend-- time heals more than anything else. Things are gonna hurt, you're gonna feel insane, you won't know what's "wrong" with you...but after time you find your way and learn to smile again. You'll smile again, Dia, and we'll all be cheering for you until you do, when you do, and even past then.

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  7. i'm here for you, Dia!! be strong! i'm always reading, no matter what. even if it's "crazy" or something that you can't hold back. =D 'till next time!

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  8. My agreements, take some time off, rest. Take the time before one of the threats makes you lose it.

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  9. I was going to write something, but it would probably echo what Lucia said. Time can be a great healer.

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  10. Dia, you know how to contact me. Take care of yourself and do what you need to keep balanced. You have plenty of support.

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  11. Knit doll, you are a wonder. At least I won't lose music.

    Freedom. you keep popping up. I'd love to see your work.

    Death- it's like being serenaded. Much appreciated.

    Samuel- I'll make the most advantageous decision. I'll be more Grey hat than neutral, but...

    Anarchitectic- Cookies yes, torture no. Had enough of that to last a while.

    Lucia, thank ya. Very much.

    Everyone else, the encouragement does me well. <3 For the interested the police are involved, and they're looking for David and my little admirer. Love you all. Hopefully, all will be well soon. I'm still watching.

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  12. Have a great rest, and I really hope the police catch David and your secret admirer.

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  13. Most work I have is hardly worth seeing, and I doubt He would approve of me sharing the intersting stuff. I'm meerly an admirer of your work, and your personality for that matter, who is trying to stay informed. Keep an eye on my if you must, I'll defiently be keeping one on you.
    See you around
    -Cage

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  14. I've shared this with M already but given that he seems to M.I.A. I figured I'd shared this with you. I've been tracked by him for a while now. Unfortunatly, I cannot run (legal reasons)so I've been having to fend for myself. For the sake of everyone getting dragged into this, I tell you what I've observed.
    1) The third floor thing works, granted I've still found him lingering outside.
    2) The dummy usually works. I've had a few encounters of minions but they still seem detered by the same dummy sometimes. His minions aren't the smartest either.
    3) As evil and malicious as he is, he's courteous. I've never been confronted by him while using the bathroom, in the shower, or well...let's say tending to personal needs. After I'm done however well that's a different story. And don't think you can stay in the bathroom or shower forever. He catches on.
    4) If you find yourself in a combative situation and there no possible way for you to escape, go for the legs and make the bastard buckle. I think it sort of works like the third-story measure in that in can't comprehend a human towering over it. Whatever the fuck it is or how it works, he was stunned. This has only happened twice. Once, I got over the coughing fits he induces enough to hit him with a bat(it was a lucky shot really). The other time was with a taser so it was from a distance. I obviously didn't stay to see how long he was stunned or if I could kill him. I just wanted to get the fuck out of there. But I cannot emphasize this enough: THIS IS ONLY A LAST RESORT!
    5) He won't let you kill yourself unless he decides it's time. I only know this info from a fellow runner so I cannot confirm it but I trust him enough to take it to heart.
    6) He seems to appear less often if you just consider his appearances to be commonplace or ignore. Or maybe he's become busy with other targets. I don't know. Granted it may just be a loophole or something since I was never in my right mind to begin with so that's helped me I think.
    7) If you go out in public, having an mp3 player/ipod on hand helps. The music helps calm ya down and you get that weird stuff that happens when he is around. Be wary, there was one occasion where I felt like my eardrums were blown out because of him.
    I had a theory about stopping the whole teleporting thing but it just resulted in a dislocated shoulder and a lost night of memories.

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  15. Chris, not that I don't admire your enthusiasim, our your good fortune up to this point, but I wouldn't have directed you here if I realized you were just going to copy your post from the Toutorial. Dia is a very important peice of the puzzle for me, and there is no sense distracting her while she is on a well deserved break. She would probably have found your comment eventually anyways, she seems to see a great deal. I just wanted you to know that she has some nice information that could extend your life expectancy. I'm not discouraging you from being active or presenting your findings, but... ease your way into it, try to stay relevant to the post or the conversation up to that point.

    Sorry if you don't like my post, Dia, I don't want to speak for you, I just wish you to enjoy your rest. Let me know if I'm out of line.
    See you around
    -Free

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  17. I'm sorry. I'm just trying to spread my findings to those I feel are the most experienced. I honestly wouldn't be this adamant if it wasn't for the fact that my war against him has had the tables slightly turned in his favor since I'm going to be fighting with a bum arm for the next couple of weeks. It's a failsafe. And sorry if I ruined your time off Dia.

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  18. Hello, my lovely Lady. :) <3

    I'm very sorry you're feeling upset. :( I do hope you update us all on how you are doing soon, Dia. As I've said before...I get worried. I'm already stressed out enough! Though I'm sure you are, too.

    Anyway, I love you, Sister, and hope you feel better soon!

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  19. Getting into hot water, Dia? I'd recommend being more careful but we know better. You've already tangled yourself within the web, just a matter of when the spider will notice your fidgeting.

    Enjoy your vacation, I highly doubt you'll have many more.

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  20. I had hoped you'd be fairing better than I.... But... I would really like to introduce this David to his entrails right now.

    I hope you are getting alot of rest and relaxation right now. You deserve it.

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  21. OnePoundofFlesh and The Contortionist already handled that Artemis

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  22. Unlikely, Chris, there is more than one David in the world. Though with the number of people on both sides out for David's blood I'm fairly sure he won't be a problem much longer, at the very least he should be laying low for a while. How'd you find One Pound of Flesh anyway?
    See you around
    -Cage

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  23. Although I do like hearing people argue about whether or not I'm alive, I thought I might clear that up.

    I've been at this game a little longer than most of you. I think I can handle a few people being angry at me for one reason or another.

    Now Dia, take your time. I see why you would like a break. But people need you here.


    And you're oh so fun to play with.

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  24. Cage- Well given One Pound of Flesh's very...unique circumstances, his blog was pretty easy to find.

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  25. Ahhh, this was entertaining to come back to. Little ones, I'm alright, you see? Information was nice to see, and I'm happy to see I have friends still out there. David, I already made my opinion on your lifespan known. I fully intend to enjoy my vacation, though things are much better.

    Thank ya everyone? I'm actually doing far better now that I'm having nothing to do with these things. Who woulda thought it? ;) I'll be back eventually. See ya soon?

    By the way, the bickering really is cute, little ones.

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